I’m sure that everyone that reads this cares so much about this, but yesterday was the completely arbitrary date of the two month anniversary with my girlfriend. Sure it’s not the most amazing thing ever, but dammit, I love each and every minute of it!

Life is great!

At times, you realize that certain things need to be done. But when those certain things are things that deal with you, and you have been living perfectly fine without that thing having been done, why fix what isn’t bothering you? But, like everyone does, you think about the future. When, how, where? But the future sort of requires that these things need to be done. Where will you be if you don’t? Certainly things won’t be good if you don’t. Happiness requires certain things, and those certain things require the other certain things. You don’t know if you could go through with the latter. It’s frightening. But thinking about it, you have to realize, it’s necessary. You want to be happy, so you have to have this done.

I really wish my mom was here. Yes Mom, I know I need it. But dammit… I’m so scared.

I’m feeling a bit out of it right now. Shouldn’t I be fairly happy? I saw a rather terrific concert last night, my mom is back home, and there are people here that I actually regularly see now… why do I feel like this?

I suppose I’m still fairly disappointed with myself. I don’t know why. But right now I just feel incredibly low.

I should be happy! Why aren’t I happy!?

I sound like such a downer :(

I’m tired right now. Not quite sure why. I think I’ve been up since 6:30 AM for no real reason, and it’s now at the time of writing this sentence approximately 12:41 AM. But, I’ve got a lot on my mind right now, and a full bladder. So, I’m a bit fidgety.

Lately, I’ve been kind of tired of feeling sorry for myself. It just leads no where, and I’ve gotta quit it. Life is crap, yeah, but you know, who the hell cares? Time is a linear process, it’ll all go by, and even if the bad times don’t go away, they’re not staying. Time is a point, and time moves in one direction. Therefore, it’s impossible to really be stuck by these bad times. It’s a state of mind, you just gotta let it go. Just imagine time as it is, a journey, and you will realize that you’re not stuck, but your mind it. I’m sure that made no sense, but it’s late. But I am a bit tired of how I’ve been feeling lately.

I mean, my mom is leaving again next week to live with her sister for some indeterminate amount of time, for her health. The woman is pretty down in the crapper here, and as much as it hurts to let her go right now, she has to. Then a bunch of really bad thoughts pop up, like what if I never see her again, and so on. I just can’t think like that. It’s not doing me or anyone else any good. So, I’m in a bit of a better mood, even if it is because I am just tired of feeling bad.

And speaking of Journey, I’m actually going to see them next week along with Cheap Trick and Heart. First concert I’ve been to in about a year and a half, and I’m fairly excited. In even bigger concert news, I am seeing Bob Dylan on August 31. That I am really excited for. I finally get to see the man I have gushed so much about in this blog for the last year (at least four posts concerning just him jump to my head right now), so I am really excited to see such a legend. Bought the tickets some 10 minutes after sales opened, so got a pretty good deal too. Chris is excited!

Alright, my bladder is empty. Let’s continue, shall we?

Beck’s new album is being released on July 8, and I’ve listened to it on the internet, and it has turned out fantastic. I’m a fan of Beck, especially his earlier stuff, but his last three albums haven’t really been any good at all. So, his latest one, Modern Guilt, I am really digging. It’s kinda short, at about 33 minutes, but it really manages to bring back Beck’s former creativity into his records. And it was much better than Radiohead’s In Rainbows. I did not like that album very much at all. So, if you’re into any of Beck’s albums at all, I suggest you check this one out. I’m pretty impressed by it.

This post went everywhere, and I don’t care. My brain is everywhere right now. Plus, I’m posting it on my Mac! It’s working for once!